Some time back, I was reading about Ananias when I came across the part where God called him to go, lay hands on and heal another man. His response was one of trepidation. He knew the reputation of this man. He knew the authority this man had to murder anyone who came in the name of Jesus. He wanted nothing to do with this assignment. But God…
How many times have I been called to face a scary situation, one I didn’t want to endure, but run the other way from? How many times did I try and run from the pain I knew it would cause me? I didn’t want to face that situation. I knew what was required of me and what could happen. But God…
Though I didn’t want to walk through any of those moments, God used my pain for His purpose.
But God…used Ananias in spite of his fears. In the end, Ananias was covered through his faithfulness and a man was healed. A man God knew He would use for many purposes and in the lives of many. He gave Saul sight and a new vision.
In my reluctant and even unwilling participation, I made it through some tough seasons in life. I never knew how I would, But God…did. He knew He would bring me through for His glory and not my own. He has and will use my hesitation and unbelief to give hope to the hopeless.
My circumstances may say one thing, But God… if You say “Go.” I will go. Revelation will be there. Hope will be found. Hearts and lives will be healed, when I obey.
What is your But God…?
3 Now as he went on his way, he approached Damascus, and suddenly a light from heaven shone around him. 4 And falling to the ground, he heard a voice saying to him, “Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting me?” 5 And he said, “Who are you, Lord?” And he said, “I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting. 6 But rise and enter the city, and you will be told what you are to do.” 7 The men who were traveling with him stood speechless, hearing the voice but seeing no one. 8 Saul rose from the ground, and although his eyes were opened, he saw nothing. So they led him by the hand and brought him into Damascus. 9 And for three days he was without sight, and neither ate nor drank.
10 Now there was a disciple at Damascus named Ananias. The Lord said to him in a vision, “Ananias.” And he said, “Here I am, Lord.” 11 And the Lord said to him, “Rise and go to the street called Straight, and at the house of Judas look for a man of Tarsus named Saul, for behold, he is praying, 12 and he has seen in a vision a man named Ananias come in and lay his hands on him so that he might regain his sight.” 13 But Ananias answered, “Lord, I have heard from many about this man, how much evil he has done to your saints at Jerusalem. 14 And here he has authority from the chief priests to bind all who call on your name.” 15 But the Lord said to him, “Go, for he is a chosen instrument of mine to carry my name before the Gentiles and kings and the children of Israel. 16 For I will show him how much he must suffer for the sake of my name.”17 So Ananias departed and entered the house. And laying his hands on him he said, “Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus who appeared to you on the road by which you came has sent me so that you may regain your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit.” 18 And immediately something like scales fell from his eyes, and he regained his sight. Then he rose and was baptized; 19 and taking food, he was strengthened. Acts 9:3-19 ESV